At 3/14/07 10:51 PM, GoryBlizzard wrote:At 3/14/07 09:38 PM, ShitOnAStick wrote: Pft. People would totally notice. and knowing most of humanity, they'd use your death as a gateway of making their life significant, which most people do through drama and 'depression'. Im sure at least they'd pretend :DGuess so. I never really thought of it that way. Having said that, I really wish my life sucked less, because now it seems like I lack a lot of control over it and it's seriously getting to me. At 17, I feel like I've wasted most of my life. I have so many regrets and personal issues, and there are a lot of things in my past that still haunt me to this very day.
You think YOU wasted your life? Look at me. I'm 21, I got kicked out of college after being a semester away from graduating, got arrested, spent a week in jail and another week in a mental hospital, pissed away thousands on alcohol and drugs, nearly flunked out of high school, lost several apartments, lived in the real shit part of town for most of my life, and I got 4 charges of possession as well as a DUI and cultivation charge. You think you have nothing to show for your life? I'm 21, have no college degree, no girlfriend, no job (at the moment) and have been practically disowned by my family. If you're 17, you're still young. You can still turn your life around. I know what it's like to be depressed. I tried to off myself several times. In the time span of september 06 to february 07, I tried to off myself 5 times: first by trying to hang myself on a fan, then by jumping out of a 2 story building, then by poisoning myself with alcohol, then by jumping out of a 3 story building, then trying to walk to the Golden Gate and jump off it. Luckily, the cops caught me before I could.
You're young. You have opportunity. You can rescuscitate yourself. I've hit bottom, yet I still have hope. I'm getting a job, going to chemical dependancy meetings, and excercising regularly. If a real scumbag like me can make something of himself, then you can too.