At 11/3/04 12:37 AM, MALforPresident wrote: you clearly dont love your own balls as much as i do

I guess mine are just tougher than yours. Considering how hard and tiny they are.

Besides, CBT is a fairly popular fetish.

At 10/31/04 09:51 PM, MALforPresident wrote: and the whole deal with anna is all weird and shit
she argues about almost everything i do. i pull out a pack of gum, it'd be trident white (my favorite) and she'll just splurt out with "why do you always have gum?!
or i'd be nice and give her a compliment, "hey, i like that shirt" [and] she'll be like "omg, you must be becoming trendie! agagaga".

Oh yeah, I know exactly what you're talking about. Funny you should mention gum though. I have a gum thing going with Oriana as well. See, I don't think I've ever told you guys this, but I make a point of always having a pack of Dentyne Ice Intense on me. Always. And why not, right? I mean, it's my favourite gum. It's my gum. But when I whip the pack out and pop one into my mouth, she'll ask me for a piece. Okay, nothing wrong with that. But then, she says, "God, this again? Why can't you ever get anything different?" That bugs me. Also, she has this terrible habit of critiquing my physique just for the hell of it. I'll be the first one to admit that I'm not exactly well built, but she keeps on grabbing my wrist and then staring at it as if there's something fundamentally wrong with my arm. Like I'm missing a finger or have a humongous phallus protruding from it or something. And yes, my shoulder is bony, but constantly reminding me of it doesn't change the fact that her head, no one else's, is the one resting on it. Do you diss your pillow when you go to sleep? I think not. And you know what? I'm still giving her compliments all the time like the little moron I am. She'll be going on about this, like, anti-frizz gel that she uses in her hair and then she'll ask me how it looks and without really thinking about it -- mostly because it's not like I had to lie about it -- I'll say, "It's pretty." And she'll be like, "Pretty? You can't say that." I ask, "Why not?" Then she says, "Well, you're Ben. Compliments just sound weird coming from you." Right. Because, you know, there's this backwoods Southern accent I employ every time I want to compliment a girl. I mean, isn't it kind of ridiculous that she won't even let me compliment her? She's already made it abundantly clear that she doesn't feel the same way about me, but at times now, she barely even treats me like a friend. She has an acerbic little comeback for just about every thing I say to her these days. It's really irritating.

On the other hand though, when she's nice to me, she's really nice. Almost in a teasing, flirty kind of way. I mean, she's at a dance right now, all right? Yesterday, I asked who she was going with and she started getting all defensive. She told me that I wouldn't like it there and kept on asking me why I wanted to know. So, I dropped the subject. But today when I brought it up, she says to me, "Should I be thinking of you the whole time I'm there?" She didn't even say it sarcastically. Well, maybe a hint of sarcasm, but really, she said it almost sweetly. And then she said, "Because I know you're going to be thinking of me the whole time." And I'm really not denying it. Then, she invites me upstairs so I can watch her blow-dry her hair. Not the most thrilling of spectator sports, but I did it anyways. And I just sat there for fifteen minutes, watching her blow-dry her hair. We barely talked. We just kind of sat there in serene silence, and she was just quiet in the way I know she wouldn't have been were she with her girlfriends at the time. And she still rests her head on my shoulder. Even when we're studying or something at her house and she's all the way across the room, she'll come and sit next to me and rest her head on my shoulder for a bit. For no reason at all. I'm still trying to decide if moments like that are worth all the aforesaid abuse. I don't know, guys. What do you all think?

By the way, it eventually emerged that she was just going to the dance with her girlfriends. She'll probably have a few dances with some of her guy friends there but I don't really mind. Even I've tangoed a few times with my other chick friends. But enough about that. So much for finding another conversation topic, huh? Oh well, guess it gives me an excuse to drop by more often. Besides, she's at the dance. What else have I got to do around here?

At 11/3/04 10:53 PM, biteme2514 wrote:

It's really irritating.

women...
thats what they are, somtimes... most times... i guess.

I don't know, guys. What do you all think?

women...
i think that they are very complex creatures, with vast mood changes, and will think something one day, and another the next.

What else have I got to do around here?

women...
hahaha jk. well, i'd say that you should be doing this more often bud.

also, im skinny too, dun worry about it, you should get a big buffer eventually...
hell, you may not, as you might already be fully grown...
but im only 15, dude im already 5"10 :P hahaha. ill get totally BUFF... hahahahah.
eh, just go swimming... like, if you did 10-20 laps a day for a month, your triceps would be ripped, your back muscles a lot bigger (=broad back), and you stamina would be a lot better, too..
hell, i went swimming once a week for like a month or two, and i felt those changes a lot...
and, im not even fully developed yet...
eh, dont worry too much about it, i guess.
good to hear from you again. drop by anytime mate.

It has been awhile how is everyone and most of all how is Newgrounds sexiest man (MAL) ^_^

At 11/3/04 10:53 PM, biteme2514 wrote: "God, this again? Why can't you ever get anything different?" That bugs me.

yeah, i always have trident white, its my favorite. and people complain...well, if they dont like it, they dont have to ask me for some.

Also, she has this terrible habit of critiquing my physique just for the hell of it. I'll be the first one to admit that I'm not exactly well built, but she keeps on grabbing my wrist and then staring at it as if there's something fundamentally wrong with my arm.Do you diss your pillow when you go to sleep?

haha, i diss my pillow, no actually, i love my pillow! it's my only friend :/

either way, i understand. this other chick at school, megan, she would hit me or something during indoor soccer by mistake and be like "OMG mal, you have abs!" and earlier she'd rub up against my arm and be like "wow, you have muscle?!"

yes, i'm a skinny fawk. ben knows that, but i'm athletic and i weight train, of course i'm going to have some muscle! it's annoying when people kinda act like they dont know things that are obvious.

but i think it's just megan, she's a very blunt and up front person

I'm still giving her compliments all the time like the little moron I am

actually, the reason she may be trying to blow you off with comments would be ebcause she's afraid she would be letting you on. you see she know is afraid that she would destroy your friendship if she is under the impression she's leading you on. so adding a few hints here and there that she really doesn't want a relationship or something might just be a defense mechinism. dont worry about it. even if it is irritating

"Well, you're Ben. Compliments just sound weird coming from you."

some people think the same way abotu me. but thats because i dont give many compliments and half the time i'm busy being a bitter and assholiesh person to people i really dont want to deal with. it's not my fault they bring it apon themselves and say or do something increadibly stupid

She has an acerbic little comeback for just about every thing I say to her these days. It's really irritating.

again, defense mechinism

On the other hand though, when she's nice to me, she's really nice. Almost in a teasing, flirty kind of way. What do you all think?

i think that she still really likes your friendship and wants it to continue, and is making up for being publicly mean to you by being nicer to you in private. you should bring it up or something and say that she's giving mixed messeges. she's probably confused herself, maybe the thought of the two of you never came up untill you mentioned it and she freaked out and didn't know what to think. and now she's thinking about the possiblity and is uncertain.

Besides, she's at the dance. What else have I got to do around here?

get a prostitute, become well aquainted with your right hand....go hang with konny...

At 11/3/04 09:51 AM, GanonsTriforce wrote: Mal, I think I may be just like Konrad... kjfkjhBisexualsahrkjhrewkj

stay. away. from. my. balls.

Bah, anyways... THis is great, I come onto newgrounds and konrad's trying to turn Mal on. Jeez. I'm afraid. Not that it's not hot... but you know... just... shocking.

no, he's trying to convince me how in the bloody hell i would still be aroused or even more arroused when my balls are hit.

And Mal, I'm stealing that down the street, not across thingy.

i stole it from somebody else

And I didn't feel like calling you. We don't really talk about anything good. >.< And it's funny hitting a guy in the balls. Cause they're so sensitive.

coming from the girl who only hours after writing this messege called me and stayed on the phone untill she was nearly asleep at midnight!

we played zelda together and talked about some useless shit.

*giggles maniacally*
But I'd never do that to you, Mal.

EYE LURVE YOU!!!

OMG I just got 2000 posts this is cool, It took me awhile but I did it.

At 11/4/04 10:45 PM, Lacie wrote: OMG I just got 2000 posts this is cool, It took me awhile but I did it.

congrats. your starting to catch up on marcus~

but next time, please put a lil more effor in making a damn post, i dont have any problems with being happy and shit. but after konrad and i, i think the topic is treading on thin ice as it is with one liners ^_^

but congrats!

At 11/4/04 10:29 PM, MALforPresident wrote: haha, i diss my pillow, no actually, i love my pillow! it's my only friend :/

i also enjoy the company of my pillow, i like it when it tells secrets to me...
eh, that just means i like sleep!

yes, i'm a skinny fawk. ben knows that, but i'm athletic and i weight train, of course i'm going to have some muscle! it's annoying when people kinda act like they dont know things that are obvious.

eh, yeh i think i should start going to the gym or something... or do more weights. im about 5 foot 10 atm, and im about 58 kilo's or something! haha.
(eh i think theres 2 pounds to the kilo, you yanks do the math.)
hmm, anyways, i find that im getting a lot stronger recently, and its good to have some violent friends... you can punch them lots! hahaha.
eh, this guy at my school, (by the way, he is a fucking retard.. i mean, hes just a dick all round. you cant get along with him at all... just a wanker) who is pretty much bigger than me all round (probly not in height though) is really starting to piss me off. i never knew him, expcept im a 'faggot'...
eh, today he walks past me with an umbrella and whacks me in the leg with it. as im walking past, i call him a faggot. he gets all pissed off, comes up to me and sais something like 'say it to my face you faggot', i tell him to fuck/piss off, he tries to whack me with the umbrella again, but i block it too easily with my leg, and the fucking thing breaks and gets bent. he's trying to be all in my face, so i simply push him away via the chest. at this stage he simply walks off, because i dont think i've ever actually laid hands on him in an offensive way (even though i would call that encounter something that i 5 year old would consider being 'violent' at all, if that).
This occurred in the locker area, which is outside at the end of recess, so my friends were probably about 10-15 meters away (ugh, 30-40 feet). One of my friends who hates this ass-hat (is probably my build, but has more meat on him, is stronger, is Greek, can fight (haha)) starts yelling at him as he walks off, as he has abused me before in Drama class... and he's always telling me that i should just beat the living shit out of him if he ever touches me again... yeh, in Drama about a week or two back, he stabbed me with a pen a few times. thats the second time he's stabbed me before, and both times have broken the skin and drew blood. i've never actually done anything about it before, as im a little bitch...
so next time he does something like that, im just going to snap :)
*reads story*
fuck, lol i didnt realise i'd written so much. o well, something for you guys to do :P

but i think it's just megan, she's a very blunt and up front person

those kinda chicks are good... never stop being friends with her. haha.

I'm still giving her compliments all the time like the little moron I am

it cant be that bad... what giving compliments. eh, just try to give them when they're due.

"Well, you're Ben. Compliments just sound weird coming from you."

then do it more often, so it doesnt sound weird :P

some people think the same way abotu me. but thats because i dont give many compliments and half the time i'm busy being a bitter and assholiesh person to people i really dont want to deal with. it's not my fault they bring it apon themselves and say or do something increadibly stupid

thats our Mal, hahah. lol.

She has an acerbic little comeback for just about every thing I say to her these days. It's really irritating.

you should confront her at one stage about it if it gets too much. just say 'you've always got an answer for everythin!' in a joking voice...

On the other hand though, when she's nice to me, she's really nice. Almost in a teasing, flirty kind of way. What do you all think?

i think Mal is right. now that she knows you like her, she's trying to make it seem she doesnt like you in that way, so you wont think she likes you.

get a prostitute, become well aquainted with your right hand....go hang with konny...

hahaha.
well, i wish some NG people lived near me... eh.
stupid... unpopular place for NG!
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well done Lacie on 2k posts, but stop spamming please. no one like one line posts... not even me :)
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eh....
exams now start in about 5 days. i havent even thought about studying, and now that its friday afternoon, i really dont know what im going to do.
eh, ill have to do some the night before and hope for an A. lol.
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wow, thats a pretty big post considering the amount of shitty little ones i've done over the past week...
i just... i just wana BASH THE SHIT outta that fucktard...
thoughts, comments, suggestions? lol... im gona go do some 5 kilo weights now XP lmao.

At 11/5/04 12:50 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: well done Lacie on 2k posts, but stop spamming please. no one like one line posts... not even me :)

LOL Thanks, sorry for the one liner I was just happy and i dont call it spam but just telling the slackers of my new post record or something like that.

MALforPresident wrote wrotw
congrats. your starting to catch up on marcus~

but next time, please put a lil more effor in making a
damn post, i dont have any problems with being happy
and shit. but after konrad and i, i think the topic is
treading on thin ice as it is with one liners ^_^

but congrats!

Thanks Mal ^_^

I will try better in the future just happy to get the 2000 after all this time i have been here.

I hope this post was better sorry Mal :(

At 11/5/04 02:08 PM, Lacie wrote: LOL Thanks, sorry for the one liner I was just happy and i dont call it spam but just telling the slackers of my new post record or something like that.

umm yeh, thats actually spam. just dont do it again.

Thanks Mal ^_^

I will try better in the future just happy to get the 2000 after all this time i have been here.

ALL THIS TIME? what have you been here for? under two months... quiet you.

I hope this post was better sorry Mal :(

yes, yes it was. more of that thanks :)

At 11/4/04 10:29 PM, MALforPresident wrote: actually, the reason she may be trying to blow you off with comments would be ebcause she's afraid she would be letting you on. you see she know is afraid that she would destroy your friendship if she is under the impression she's leading you on. so adding a few hints here and there that she really doesn't want a relationship or something might just be a defense mechinism. dont worry about it. even if it is irritating

Buddy, it's already occurred to me. The problem is, the more she does this, the less I'm interested in wanting to remain friends with her. I mean, how stupid does she think I am? I get the hint already. And there's really no need to deprecate me all the time the way she does. Remember how I said that I'm slowly despising my Video Arts class more and more? It's not the fault of the teacher or anything -- Mr. Rhead is great at what he does -- and I'm enjoying what I'm learning and all; I just don't like working with the people in my group. Today, we were all working on trying to get Oriana's project finished. The general gist of what we needed to do was videotape someone walking down a hallway. The assignment itself is actually much more complicated, but I'm not going to bore you all with the technical jargon. Long story short, we needed to film someone walking down a hallway. Easy enough. So, we needed a walker. See, for legal reasons, we can't just videotape anyone so it needed to be someone in our group. And since I figured that Oriana seems much friendlier with the aforementioned Anita than with me in that class, I said, "I take it you probably want Anita in your shot." At which point Oriana replies, "Of course. You think I'd want that on camera?" She was talking about me, by the way. Apparently, I'm a that in her book. But that's not all. Remember the "film Nazi" comments I keep getting from them when I try to help with their assignments? I decided not to help Oriana today so she wouldn't have a reason to rip my head off again, and once again, I'm the one that's somehow in the wrong. I'm supposed to help her, because I understand it all. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. I'm sick of it. I want out. At this point, I really don't care if it's a defense mechanism or not. She doesn't treat her friends like this, so why me? Why do I get only slightly better treatment than something she scraped off a public urinal? Her parents treat me more like a friend than she does! But you know what? I've accepted it. I've even gotten over it. I'd hate to say it, but her plan worked. I don't like her anymore. It's funny; I don't even find her physically attractive anymore. But at the same time, I don't want to never see her again. I'll still catch a movie with her sometime, but I don't really want to talk to her. Not with the attitude she has. You say she's interested in preserving the friendship, right? Well, she knows me well enough to know when to stop. And in retrospect, looking back on everything that's happened in the past three weeks -- I did only tell her three weeks ago -- maybe I never knew her at all. Not really. In any case, I still have to deal with her for the next few months in that class. Maybe things will start looking up, but I doubt it. She's become a whole new person and I don't know if I want to be anywhere near it.

And Marcus, I have confronted her about it. She hasn't changed. And I've given up hope that she ever will. I just knew that something like this was going to happen after I told her. I guess I just thought that after a week or two with us still hanging out from time to time that things would be back to normal, but so much for that. I'm supposed to give her a call this weekend though. We'll see how that turns out. Oh, and in other news, I'm on the verge of finishing Vernon God Little, I started working on my screenplay again and I seem to have settled into a routine where I do at least fifty sit-ups a day. Firm stomachs. Sexy. Until next time, people. Sorry for the downer of a post, but well, I needed to get it out. You know how it is.

At 11/6/04 01:55 AM, biteme2514 wrote: Long story short,

holy shit! its a break through for ben! haha!!!

hmm. well that sucks about her changing and all... so you really liked her before? and now not at all...
sheesh. i've said it before, and i'll say it again...
WOMEN.

And Marcus,

holy fekc! i think this is the second (or possibly 3rd) time you've ever directly adressed me...
thanks man!

I started working on my screenplay again and I seem to have settled into a routine where I do at least fifty sit-ups a day. Firm stomachs. Sexy.

do you know how unrelated those things seem to each other? haha. 'started working on my screenplay again'... '50 situps a day' hahaha. i know what you meant and all, i just found that amusing :)
eh, 50 a day is damn good. you'll have a ripped six pack in like a few weeks.

Until next time, people. Sorry for the downer of a post, but well, I needed to get it out. You know how it is.

eh, its not a downer. just something relaxing for me to do for a change, is all :) and yeh, i know how it is.
...
eh... my end of year exams start on thursday... do you guys think i should start studying? i really think i should now.... damn... maybe i should do a little bit now.
eh, thanks for dropping in Benny.

Hi again everyone.

It's been a while since I last posted, and it's usually because I can't contribute to the convos you guys are having - However, today I have something to say, and it ain't pretty...

At about 6:30am I am awoken by a freaky loud crashing sound that scared the crap out of me, but figured that it's just my dad accidentally breaking a glass while getting ready for work, and so I tried getting back to my much needed sleep. Then a few minutes later I hear loud breathing, but figure it's probably grampa snorring, and so, well, you know.

About an hour later I'm awoken again by footsteps and sirens, (back to sleep), then again (after 8:00am) by more footsteps, sirens, and people talking. This time I lied in bed listening to the convo, and heard some things about my dad having an accident and maybe being dead - I listened on.

Then a few minutes later Grandma knocked on my door saying that dad is dead, so I quickly got out of bed, got dressed, and walked towards the kitchen (with a fast pulse). I saw my family (except mom, who is still on vacation in Cuba) standing outside the kitchen, talking to a cop and paramedic. Then I peeked into the kitchen and see dad's lifeless body lying face up on the floor, under two sheets - That was the first dead body I have ever seen with my own eyes, and I felt worse.

After the convo, the whole family went downstairs and the cops conducted their investigation. Later on they asked us some questions and we all went upstairs agian. This time we saw dad's face uncovered, and it was even harder for me to look - Especially with grandma crying.

After seeing him for the last time, the paramedics put him in a body bag and carried him to one of the two ambulances. Well, now he's resting in the morgue of Royal Columbian Hospital. The cause of death is still unknown, but it's possible that he collapsed from a smoking-related illness, and couldn't get any help untill my brother woke up for work. As for Mom, we'll break it to her when she returns.

As for the rest of the day, I tried getting my mind off it by doing statics homework, But I still couldn't stop thinking about it.

You know, my dad may have lived had it happened yesterday morning - or had I got my ass out of bed to take a look. But since I don't get out of bed until I have to, I'll just have to accept the fact that his death was inevitable.

It's a shame that it had to happen on the day when I always need the most sleep.

At 11/6/04 11:15 PM, Painbringer wrote: You know, my dad may have lived had it happened yesterday morning - or had I got my ass out of bed to take a look. But since I don't get out of bed until I have to, I'll just have to accept the fact that his death was inevitable.

let me bet he first to say. i am so sorry to hear this konrad! i really hope you feel better, as hard as it is right now.

and dont think it was your fault. judging by the situation you explained it cuold have been a heart attack or something sudden. even if you had gotten out of bed, he still had slim chances, and i'm sure time would have been lost between finding him and getting the paramedics. hopefully he was lucky enough to be oncouncious and being able to go peacefully.

i'm not a religious man, so i dont feel right saying that he's looking down on you from heaven now. or that he is at eternal peace with the great spirit.

but my veiw on death ranges from being reborn, nothingness, or an eternal paradise. i'll find out when i die.

all my hopes and condolences to you and your family.

At 11/6/04 11:15 PM, Painbringer wrote: Hi again everyone.

hi pain... :(

You know, my dad may have lived had it happened yesterday morning - or had I got my ass out of bed to take a look. But since I don't get out of bed until I have to, I'll just have to accept the fact that his death was inevitable.

jesus H....
im sorry dude....
things like this should never happen...

It's a shame that it had to happen on the day when I always need the most sleep.

you... dont seem.... like.... you know...
if my dad died, i think i would go nuts, and probably shoot myself.
im extremely sorry to hear that... god that sucks... i cant really express my sadness over the BBS...
god im typing slowly...
:'(
:'(
:'(

At 11/6/04 11:38 PM, MALforPresident wrote: hopefully he was lucky enough to be oncouncious and being able to go peacefully.

But the "heavy breathing" I heard seems to suggest that he suffered for some time.

i'll find out when i die.

We all will. But I would like to hear what they all will say about me.

all my hopes and condolences to you and your family.

At 11/6/04 11:41 PM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: things like this should never happen...

But they do, and always will.

you... dont seem.... like.... you know...

Sad? Depressed? I can control those emotions, but can't control my body functions - Been sick to the stomach most of the day because of it.

if my dad died, i think i would go nuts, and probably shoot myself.

That last thing I want to do today is leave my family with another corpse. Hell, I don't feel suicidal!

im extremely sorry to hear that... god that sucks... i cant really express my sadness over the BBS...

You're taking it worse than I am. :-(

god im typing slowly...

Yeah, that's how I type.

At 11/7/04 12:16 AM, Painbringer wrote: But they do, and always will.

very true...

Sad? Depressed? I can control those emotions, but can't control my body functions - Been sick to the stomach most of the day because of it.

i was thinking that if i saw a corpse i would throw up pretty quick.
but i would still feel like shit (emotionally)

That last thing I want to do today is leave my family with another corpse. Hell, I don't feel suicidal!

im not saying i WOULD blow my brains out... hell i would never do that. what im saying is.... thats gota be one of the worst things i can think of.

You're taking it worse than I am. :-(

it came as a fucking huge shock to me dude. and you broke it pretty suddenly, too.

Yeah, that's how I type.

again, i was shocked.
but now im typing faster again :P haha.
well buddy, i hope you get on with things as per normal ASAP...
i can see that you're not the kind to dwell and get all sappy about things like this... i just wasnt expecting that at all.
hell, maybe you knew the smokes would kill him eventually, and you werent too shocked... hell, maybe you didnt have the best of relationships...
but i immediately put myself in your shoes when i heard about it, and i know how i would feel.
talk to you all later...

again, i hope all goes well with you and your family konrad, i'm actually kinda happy to see that you're not hugely upset by it.

i dont think i'd take it as hard as marcus, but i would have taken it very hard if i were in your shoes.

in other news:

we had a toga dance last night at school. i won for best toga. um...i found out anna was pissy all week and bashing me because she was PMSing. then again, it brings up the question of why just me? she was pleasent to most everyone, cept me. i'd open my mouth and i'd get hit with a bash to the ole' ego.

erm..i havn't talked to "that girl" who was one of my best friends in a long time. my theory is that her hinting of some poeple looking at her house (i asked her about it, and she never answered me) and she has moved/in process of moving. and just plain doesnt wanna inform me

she probably has blocked me on AIM or changed her screen name (as she usually does) but decided not to tell me.

hmm...how sucky is that?

other then that, next weekend i'm going up to pottsdam for yet another tourniment for forensics (that speech/acting dealy) and maybe i'll get my second half bid and get into state finals (that'd be cool, 2 compititions into the year and i already get into state finals) i was going to do a monologue, but i decided not to because i dont have time to memorize it.

in slacking news: i'm still an shitstorm behind in math, but catching up ni chemistry, the marking period ends on wednesday (we dont have school thursday or friday) and i need to get burnin some arse to catch up!

oh yeah, and i'm well within the 80s for bother history and english. yay for me

oh yeah! i had my first indoor soccer game today in plattsburgh

and we got our second win in the "real keene indoor football club" history. the first one was the last game of last season where we won due to the other team not showing up.

we won today 10-5 (YAYYAYAYAYAY~!!!!!)

it was kinda bitter sweet because the other team schrimmaged another team right before us (and i mean, we watched them finish,a nd half a minute later, we were playing them, literally!), so i figure they probably may have won but were tired

At 11/7/04 05:47 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: i was thinking that if i saw a corpse i would throw up pretty quick.

He wasn't decayed or anything - Maybe a little discoloured on the face, but that's about it.

but i would still feel like shit (emotionally)

You mean crying and shit? Ah, that's for weaklings - Although it is highly recomended.

what im saying is.... thats gota be one of the worst things i can think of.

You think that's bad? How about all those little kids in the medival times whos families have been charged with witchcraft? Can't get any worse than that.

it came as a fucking huge shock to me dude. and you broke it pretty suddenly, too.

How was I supposed to soften the impact?

i can see that you're not the kind to dwell and get all sappy about things like this... i just wasnt expecting that at all.

Yeah, sometimes you just have to keep a strong mind.

hell, maybe you knew the smokes would kill him eventually, and you werent too shocked...

Actually, although I have analysed the scenario many times before it happened, I didn't think it would affect me that much - At least I wouldn't feel as guilty if it happened on the road, at work, or even Friday morning.

but i immediately put myself in your shoes when i heard about it, and i know how i would feel.

I don't think you would know exactly what it's like until it happens.

talk to you all later...

Hope I didn't make you feel too depressed.

At 11/7/04 10:20 PM, MALforPresident wrote: again, i hope all goes well with you and your family konrad, i'm actually kinda happy to see that you're not hugely upset by it.

I'm kinda surpried too. Maybe it was a taste of worse things to come in the future.

i dont think i'd take it as hard as marcus, but i would have taken it very hard if i were in your shoes.

I guess that's something we all can agree on.

in slacking news: i'm still an shitstorm behind in math, but catching up ni chemistry

I have been doing the most statics homework ever this weekend, but nothing else.

At 11/8/04 12:30 AM, Painbringer wrote: He wasn't decayed or anything - Maybe a little discoloured on the face, but that's about it.

fair enough. but the realisation that its not living would get to me.

You mean crying and shit? Ah, that's for weaklings - Although it is highly recomended.

then i am king of the weaklings :P

You think that's bad? How about all those little kids in the medival times whos families have been charged with witchcraft? Can't get any worse than that.

i WAS refering to current times...

How was I supposed to soften the impact?

look back at the post dude, it WAS pretty sudden. youre grandma came into your room telling you your dads dead? dude...

Yeah, sometimes you just have to keep a strong mind.

true be that.

Actually, although I have analysed the scenario many times before it happened, I didn't think it would affect me that much - At least I wouldn't feel as guilty if it happened on the road, at work, or even Friday morning.

fair enough dude, fair enough.

I don't think you would know exactly what it's like until it happens.

probably right i wouldnt.

Hope I didn't make you feel too depressed.

eh, i wasnt depresed at all, quite shocked though. its not very often in my life i've ever dealt with death. a few of my great grandparents have died (like i knew them)... and my first dog died within 4 days of owning him.
eye=not experienced.
eh, hope you're feeling better.

At 11/8/04 12:46 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: fair enough. but the realisation that its not living would get to me.

Yeah, that got me too.

then i am king of the weaklings :P

Don't be so hard on yourself.

i WAS refering to current times...

And you think shit like that dosen't happen today?! Well it still does, and times are irrelevant too me because they were just as human as we are today.

look back at the post dude, it WAS pretty sudden. youre grandma came into your room telling you your dads dead? dude...

Yes, but I already knew from all the later noises that really bad shit happened.

eh, hope you're feeling better.

Well, I guess I am.

At 11/8/04 12:58 AM, Painbringer wrote: Yeah, that got me too.

*nods*

Don't be so hard on yourself.

lol dont worry im not.

Yes, but I already knew from all the later noises that really bad shit happened.

fair enough, it just appeared very strange, like you were talking about it as a day-to-day thing or something... meh.

Well, I guess I am.

well thats good. :)
ttyal.

At 11/8/04 01:01 PM, GanonsTriforce wrote: Oh my god, Konrad, I am so sorry.

we all are :/

I don't have much to say on the subject, but if you ever need to talk, you can talk to me, because I know what it's like to lose a dad.

yeah. you hit on it once in a while in conversation. so i dont dwell on it when you mention it. but what happened to your father? if you dont mind me asking that is.

*then pokes mal for not responding to my post*

i'm sorry. i was going to, but i hadn't posted since thursday. and so i didn't see friday's posts until saturday. and by then konrad had broken the news to us all. and i felt that took priority to flirting and chit chat.

again, sorry

At 11/8/04 05:12 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: fair enough, it just appeared very strange, like you were talking about it as a day-to-day thing or something... meh.

Day-to-day as in nothing special? No, I'm just being objective, that's all.

At 11/8/04 01:01 PM, GanonsTriforce wrote: I don't have much to say on the subject, but if you ever need to talk, you can talk to me, because I know what it's like to lose a dad.

I don't know if asking questions about your dad would be right, but it's up to you.

At 11/8/04 06:20 PM, MALforPresident wrote: but what happened to your father? if you dont mind me asking that is.

For a minute there I thought you were asking me.

and i felt that took priority to flirting and chit chat.

Was it because of emotions or morals that you put everything else on hold?

At 11/8/04 10:14 PM, Painbringer wrote: Was it because of emotions or morals that you put everything else on hold?

a lil bit of both.

i was about to post and saw yours, and it just kinda threw me out of the mood to realy make something happy and joking really.

and i kinda didn't think you'd appreciate it much had i just ignored your post.

haha, now you are guilty of doing what i usually do, replying to each post seperately!