At 11/8/04 11:43 PM, MALforPresident wrote: i was about to post and saw yours, and it just kinda threw me out of the mood to realy make something happy and joking really.

So sorry.

and i kinda didn't think you'd appreciate it much had i just ignored your post.

Well, I figured someone would reply - Otherwise you guys just wouldn't care.

You know, this reminds me of the edited "Room of those who care" pic you guys made for me over a year ago. Only this time I'm not doing a sick experiment like that AIDS thing- I swear to God.

haha, now you are guilty of doing what i usually do, replying to each post seperately!

And why not? There's nothing in the rules about "postpooling".

At 11/8/04 10:07 PM, Painbringer wrote:

At 11/8/04 05:12 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: fair enough, it just appeared very strange, like you were talking about it as a day-to-day thing or something... meh.

Day-to-day as in nothing special? No, I'm just being objective, that's all.

first off, i got the first of the multi posts!! YESH! i won by a whopping 7 minutes XO hahah. o well...
and Pain, yeh i was thinking that... it didnt seem like anything 'big' when you said it. but i guess its hard to show emotion in text, eh...
and you're just being objective? eh... i must have a crappy grasp on the english language... explain!

At 11/9/04 01:09 PM, GanonsTriforce wrote: So yeah, that's what happened.

thats horrible. i'm sorry i brought it up.

but it seems really nice that he was able to have the funeral in greece, which is cool. and cancer is a terrible thing to go through for everyone. i remember my grandmother battled cancer (i think it was breast cancer) for a few years. she died in 1999, i was able to go to her funeral, my dad had flown out when she took the final turn for the worste. he called me just after they pulled the plug after she had gone into a coma.

kinda weird through. when he called all i could think about was how missreble she was slowly dying with cancer, and how her suffering was over and she was at peace. i guess thats why i didn't cry at the funeral either. but i came close when my uncle read a poem he wrote that was in first person from her perspective directed towards my grandfather

it began with the line "has it been so long ed..." thats all i remember from it.

wow. konrad and allison, i really hope that you guys don't tie this thread with bad memories and sad stories. i dont want you guys to stop coming based on that.

At 11/9/04 12:30 AM, Painbringer wrote: So sorry.

not your fault bro.

Well, I figured someone would reply - Otherwise you guys just wouldn't care.

You know, this reminds me of the edited "Room of those who care" pic you guys made for me over a year ago. Only this time I'm not doing a sick experiment like that AIDS thing- I swear to God.

haha, i remember that. but i beleive you dude. dont worry. i'm never one to hold grudges. you just showed us all here how much we take the internet seriously and that we shouldent...and to never trust canadians.....

And why not? There's nothing in the rules about "postpooling".

actually there is, the whole "double posting" rule....

At 11/9/04 03:17 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: and Pain, yeh i was thinking that... it didnt seem like anything 'big' when you said it. but i guess its hard to show emotion in text, eh...

It's true, I wasn't really emotional about it when it happened - I was very high on adrenalin though.

and you're just being objective? eh... i must have a crappy grasp on the english language... explain!

Subjective (opinionated):
"That fish was huge!"

Objective (factual):
"That fish was a metre long and weighed 20 kilos!"

See the difference?

At 11/9/04 01:09 PM, GanonsTriforce wrote: So yeah, that's what happened.

Well, at least we have one bad thing in common.

One thing I must know: Were you there the moment it happened, or a short time later? I just want to know if anyone has experienced what I have.

At 11/9/04 09:46 PM, MALforPresident wrote: not your fault bro.

Well, I'm not one who likes ruining the mood. But I understand.

you just showed us all here how much we take the internet seriously and that we shouldent...and to never trust canadians.....

Actually, the whole reason I did it was because I was in a bored/creative mood, and wanted to know what it's like to be a NG member with a terminal illness.

actually there is, the whole "double posting" rule....

But that only applies to consecutive duplicate posts - Unless someone twisted the meaning around.

At 11/9/04 10:58 PM, Painbringer wrote: Well, I'm not one who likes ruining the mood. But I understand.

would anyone object to changing the mood to something lighter?
i mean, as much as its good to vent frustration and emotion. i kinda dont want the topic to slide to despair and missery

Actually, the whole reason I did it was because I was in a bored/creative mood, and wanted to know what it's like to be a NG member with a terminal illness.

thats kind of what i meant, we were all acting like this place was real life. and then you came and destroyed that by showing us how loserly we became.

and i enjoy mixing things up once in a while

But that only applies to consecutive duplicate posts - Unless someone twisted the meaning around.

i'm sure if i were mod i'd twist it around, just for you, budday <3

At 11/9/04 11:44 PM, MALforPresident wrote:

i kinda dont want the topic to slide to despair and missery

Who says I'm miserable?

and then you came and destroyed that by showing us how loserly we became.

Hmm, not what I intended, but whatever.

i'm sure if i were mod i'd twist it around, just for you, budday <3

Great, so you would ban just me for doing it. :-P

Oh, and have you seen DirtySicko's topic about heart surgery (the one where he said he might die)? Well, I pretty much just noticed it, and what I found was that it was created like three hours after my dad died.

Strange.

At 11/9/04 10:34 PM, Painbringer wrote: Subjective (opinionated):
"That fish was huge!"

Objective (factual):
"That fish was a metre long and weighed 20 kilos!"

See the difference?

ahhh, i see. thats a good explanation :)
heh, im way too buggered to read the rest of that...
my exams start tomorrow... :|

At 11/10/04 12:21 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: my exams start tomorrow... :|

My finals won't be for another few weeks.

Hopefully I won't fail.

At 11/10/04 12:35 AM, Painbringer wrote:

At 11/10/04 12:21 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: my exams start tomorrow... :|

My finals won't be for another few weeks.

Hopefully I won't fail.

my first exam starts in exactly 12 hours and 32 minutes...
theres no way im failing :P hahaha. im a smart cookie :P
lol.

At 11/10/04 12:50 PM, GanonsTriforce wrote: <3 mal

<3!!!

i really want to call you. but alas, its wednesday,a nd last week i talked to you so late that i wasnt able to do my lit log.

so uh..i'll call you tomarrow ( i dont have school tomarrow or friday)

and then on friday i'm off for the rest of that day and most of saturday for a speech tourniment.

devon and i have decided even if we do get our second half bid (which will allow us to go to states) we're still going to all the compititions and steal all the bids away from anyone else and rack up the good ole' trophies

and last night i did something cool, ozcar was talking to me on MSN and he said he wanted to submit a song i had. so i sent it to him (it was his song, but he lost it) and then he mentioned a project he was working on and i said that i'd like to help him with any voice acting he needed. well i did a some lines for it, and he loved it

tomarrow i make my debut on NG as a flash caractor....kinda

Well well, today is a special day for me not only because I have reached 7000xp, but because it is my two-year aniversary.

Now I attempted to make a topic in General, but failed because it's late, I'm tired, and typing out a paragraph seems unusually difficult for me right now.

So goodnight for now, and happy Rememberance/Memorial Day.

At 11/11/04 02:15 AM, Painbringer wrote: So goodnight for now, and happy Rememberance/Memorial Day.

Happy Remembrance Day? That's kind of like having a solemn Christmas, isn't it? I'm a little annoyed at my Remembrance Day though. For one, I'm kind of against the idea of war in general and I'm not sure why all the businesses in town should shut down for a day to honour people who, in my mind, are just killers. I mean, I understand that war was hell and all, and it must have been horrible to watch your friends dying around you, but in the end, all the veterans were just as much a part of all that death and horror as anyone else involved. They caused just as much death to the other side as they did them, so celebrating them seems somehow wrong to me. Instead of reflecting on the so-called bravery of the soldiers involved, why not focus more on a day of peace? It just makes so much more sense to me. Oh, and I'm also really restless right now. Guess that's what happens when you're a gadabout like me. It's easy to be bored when no one else is around.

But yeah, Konrad, the news about your father really struck me. I mean, I've only met him maybe four or five times, but he always seemed like a really nice guy. You know, always willing to give me a ride home, always willing to try and make a little conversation so that things could be more comfortable. I didn't know him as well as you did, I guess, but still, the news about his death really saddened me. That's two people I know now who have died this year. And Sharpe, well, he meant a lot to me. On the other hand, I wish I could say that I know how you feel, but I don't want to because that's a lie. I don't know what it feels like to lose a family member. I say I hate my father all the time, but I don't think I'll be running to piss on his grave when he does go, you know? All I can say is that I'm sorry and that I thought your dad was a really great guy. It's not every parent who offers one of his kids' friends red wine just because he thinks it would go well with the cake. Say, how are Arthur and your mom holding up? Are they taking it as well as you are or do they think you're, like, strangely impassive? Knowing me, I'd likely be bawling myself to sleep for the first few nights.

So anyways, things between me and Oriana have settled again. I had a slightly more serious talk with her than usual last Sunday and she's agreed to at least treat me with a little more respect in front of her friends and mine. We're back to being good friends again and I'm back to spending far too much time at her place, dreaming of a life I'll never have. I've gotten used to it. It'd all be easier to deal with if I were to just convince myself that I hated her, but I don't think that's really fair. The heart wants what it wants. And the hormones hold the reins. I'm in a better mood these days anyways. My cats seem to know that something's up so they're being friendlier and I guess I've been spending more time with my other friends as well as I now know I don't stand a chance with Ori. Went downtown and saw La Dolce Vita with Robin last night. Had breakfast at her place this morning too. No, I didn't stay the night. Just wanted to make you all think I had for a second there. And with that, I'm out of here until next time. I can't type much more anyways. My cats are, like, double-teaming me right now. Later, people. Oh, and "happy" Remembrance Day.

At 11/11/04 02:15 AM, Painbringer wrote: Well well, today is a special day for me not only because I have reached 7000xp, but because it is my two-year aniversary.

and you got 7,400 posts... well done man.
well, Benny boy posted, but i sooo dont have time to read all that.
well ben, ill have you know i've got something special planned for you :)
nothing weird... just a screen shot coming your way in a day or two, hehe.
eh, you guys can problyguess what it is.... bleh.
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EXAMS!!!

At 11/11/04 08:14 PM, biteme2514 wrote: why not focus more on a day of peace?

well, you forget two important things that de-vilidify your rant

1. most of the men you accuse of being the Killers and heartless were loving husbands, brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, uncles, aunts grandfathers grandmothers. and they had absolutly no choice in some cases, because in most of the wars that we remember on this day, THEY WERE DRAFTED! sorry, but it's true

and 2. there actually is an internationally observed day for peace. along with "earth day" and the rememberances for the ends of wars. they are days about peace. its just that today (we call it veteran's day here in the US

boo frickidy whoo

its always hard to lose somebody.

eithe rway, yea konny. how is your lil bro and mother taking it?

i'm an angsty teen

haha, well. anna and i are on better terms, i think.

she's been a little nicer..and i put emphisis on little. you know, its hard not to lash back when she goes psycho bitch at you for making a joke.

either way, i let her cut my hair today...doesn't look half bad

eh.... Mal posted up a picture, so i thought i'd just spread the lurve for a little bit.
oh, and the day Allison makes a post directed at me, will be the day i run the streets naked singing alayluya.

At 11/11/04 08:14 PM, biteme2514 wrote: I'm a little annoyed at my Remembrance Day though. For one, I'm kind of against the idea of war in general and I'm not sure why all the businesses in town should shut down for a day to honour people who, in my mind, are just killers.

Wow, Ben, I never seen you rant like that before. Now although I think that war in general is hypocricy, I don't think anyone would just surrender to an occupying army.

I mean, my great Grampa wasn't ready to let the Nazis send my family to the concentration camps. And I bet your Grandparents didn't just surrender to the Japanese Empire.

Many of these "killers" took up a gun solely for the purpose of defending their friends and family from the unkown. But yeah, I think those who join for fun, kicking ass, or money are the real killers.

I didn't know him as well as you did, I guess, but still, the news about his death really saddened me.

Yeah, you two did have good conversations in the car, and at my place. Too bad it had to end so soon.

And Sharpe, well, he meant a lot to me. On the other hand, I wish I could say that I know how you feel, but I don't want to because that's a lie.

Well, Ben, all I can say is you were lucky not to be one of the first people to see someone lying where they just died.

I don't know what it feels like to lose a family member.

You mean no one in your family has died in your lifetime as far as you can remember? I don't know how you would handle a scenario like mine.

I say I hate my father all the time, but I don't think I'll be running to piss on his grave when he does go, you know?

I know niether of you two really hate each other.

All I can say is that I'm sorry and that I thought your dad was a really great guy.

Glad to know that you two got along so well - Though I'm sorry to say that I haven't had any good convos with your dad. Probably never will.

Say, how are Arthur and your mom holding up? Are they taking it as well as you are or do they think you're, like, strangely impassive?

Unlike evil me, they're still mourning. My bro dosen't show it, but I can tell from his eyes when he does. As for my mom, she is still very troubled by it - So troubled that she would rather sleep in the living room than in the bedroom with memories of dad.

At 11/12/04 02:03 AM, Painbringer wrote:

At 11/11/04 08:14 PM, biteme2514 wrote: I'm a little annoyed at my Remembrance Day though. For one, I'm kind of against the idea of war in general and I'm not sure why all the businesses in town should shut down for a day to honour people who, in my mind, are just killers.

well, there's one point of view...

Wow, Ben, I never seen you rant like that before. Now although I think that war in general is hypocricy, I don't think anyone would just surrender to an occupying army.

eh, a lot of people did, you know.

I mean, my great Grampa wasn't ready to let the Nazis send my family to the concentration camps. And I bet your Grandparents didn't just surrender to the Japanese Empire.

good point.

Many of these "killers" took up a gun solely for the purpose of defending their friends and family from the unkown. But yeah, I think those who join for fun, kicking ass, or money are the real killers.

exactly.

I didn't know him as well as you did, I guess, but still, the news about his death really saddened me.

i never heard anything about him, but it still kicked me in the nuts kinda.

And Sharpe, well, he meant a lot to me. On the other hand, I wish I could say that I know how you feel, but I don't want to because that's a lie.

who is Sharpe? Pain's dad's name?

I don't know what it feels like to lose a family member.

neither.

You mean no one in your family has died in your lifetime as far as you can remember? I don't know how you would handle a scenario like mine.

nah uh. the only people in my family that have died in my lifetime have been 2 great grandparents... now i only have 1. and man, shes a weird one. drinks so much fekcing juice (alcahol) its just not funny!
well... heh, i guess it kinda is. hehe.

I say I hate my father all the time, but I don't think I'll be running to piss on his grave when he does go, you know?

i dont think i would know of anyone who would do that. you would have to have some sort of inhumane beast for a dad to do that.

Unlike evil me, they're still mourning. My bro dosen't show it, but I can tell from his eyes when he does. As for my mom, she is still very troubled by it - So troubled that she would rather sleep in the living room than in the bedroom with memories of dad.

well i guess you couldnt say that was a shock, eh...
still, that sucks.
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too much talk about dead people, damnit...
THIS IS MY 2,514TH POST!!!!!
and im dedicating it to benny boy, because... well, you'd have to be a blind monkey not to know.
ill give you guys a screeny on my next post. :)

heh, allison is going to kill me now :(

but i'm still happy.

so today on the ride back from the speech tourniment...anna and i just made out.

damn..i'd never seen that coming.

either way, devon and i got 4th place (three people from that town got 1s-3rd and all the half bids) grr! but they were all very good, i was just happy we made it to the finals round because devon blanked out during the last normal round of compitition.

and college students make bad judges for these things. they were making up nonexcistant rules left and right. i spent half the time in the tab room (where the head judges are) trying to make sure i didn't get cheated

other then that whole thing it was a pretty cool tourniment. i met up with 6 people from camp

i first saw sarah and nick at the student union and she didn't recognize me (none of them had seen me since i had long hair). and i talked to them a lil, then nick left and i talked to sarah some. got all the new gossip about people we work with

then while walking out of the student union later that night i ran into zac (almost literally) i had spent the entire summer teaching rocketry with him. and we hugged, he made a crack aboot my hair, then he offered to show me around.

we first went to meg's place. she was happy to see me (jumped on me) and we talked a lil, but she had family over and they were talking so zac and i were kinda awkwerdly in the doorway for about ten minutes before we just decided to leave.

after leaving megs' dorm, i asked if anyone else was nearby. just so happens koley and shannon were just across the street from the dorm i was in. so we went there, shannon was off on a date or something, but koley was happy to see me also (jumped on me..what's with camp people and jumping on eachother?!) either way, we talked for a while. and then decided to invite Charles (assistant cook at camp) he had just gotten off work (at the student union too) and he came by.

sadly the bastards gave me an 11pm curfew, so at 10:52 i asked zac where the hell i was and how ic ould get back to my dorm. he showed me and i sprinted off to the building i was at and yeah. that was my night yesterday.

in conclusion: got 4th place (which is still cool!), made out with anna, got jumped on.

At 11/13/04 05:54 PM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: who is Sharpe? Pain's dad's name?

No, he's Ben's favorite music teacher. You can read more about him in Ben's profile.

I also just noticed that Ben updated his profile pic with a piece of the one of me and him at my place.

too much talk about dead people, damnit...

I guess so, but I still have that strange interest in the subject of death. But just to change the subject, I'll just say that I scored yesterday night!

THIS IS MY 2,514TH POST!!!!!

Isn't it a little late for that? Oh well, I would have gotten my 10k before Ozcar, so I can't complain. Congrats, man!

and im dedicating it to benny boy, because... well, you'd have to be a blind monkey not to know.

Duh. :-)

ill give you guys a screeny on my next post. :)

Whatever that means.

At 11/13/04 10:10 PM, Painbringer wrote: No, he's Ben's favorite music teacher. You can read more about him in Ben's profile.

ahh yes.

I also just noticed that Ben updated his profile pic with a piece of the one of me and him at my place.

lol really? its been like that for ATLEAST a month... maybe 2... lol.
someone doesnt <3 BEN!

I guess so, but I still have that strange interest in the subject of death. But just to change the subject, I'll just say that I scored yesterday night!

good on you. may i ask what sex this person was? or would you rather not disclose? bleh.

Isn't it a little late for that? Oh well, I would have gotten my 10k before Ozcar, so I can't complain. Congrats, man!

a little late? why?
its ben's number, damnit!

Duh. :-)

:)

Whatever that means.

screeny = screen shot. observe:

At 11/14/04 03:07 AM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: lol really? its been like that for ATLEAST a month... maybe 2... lol. someone doesnt <3 BEN!

I ain't complaining. In fact, I'm happy to see it there.

good on you. may i ask what sex this person was? or would you rather not disclose? bleh.

I think you should already know that by now.

a little late? why? its ben's number, damnit!

Yes, but we all got ours back in the days when Ben ruled the BBS.

screeny = screen shot. observe:

Ah yes - I was thinking of it in movie terms.

At 11/14/04 01:16 PM, Painbringer wrote: I ain't complaining. In fact, I'm happy to see it there.

lol, i like it a lot better than his old one. he looked scared in that one :P

I think you should already know that by now.

well, you have said you are bi, but i guess i can safely say i know.
bleh.

Yes, but we all got ours back in the days when Ben ruled the BBS.

hey... FEKC j00!! when Ben roamed the BBS, i wasnt even signed up.... so quiet YER!

Ah yes - I was thinking of it in movie terms.

hmm... im MARCUS... THATS Ben *points to the scrawny kid in the corner*
lol jk dude, im scrawny too, hahaha.

At 11/14/04 09:00 PM, M-A-R-C-U-S wrote: lol, i like it a lot better than his old one. he looked scared in that one :P

I think he looks a little mean in that one, but that's what he warned us about before ever showing his face.

well, you have said you are bi, but i guess i can safely say i know. bleh.

I guess I can only do a girl if she's with a guy who would let me.

Yeah, I'm such a loser.

hey... FEKC j00!! when Ben roamed the BBS, i wasnt even signed up.... so quiet YER!

Shut the FUCK up, n00b! :-)

hmm... im MARCUS... THATS Ben *points to the scrawny kid in the corner*
lol jk dude, im scrawny too, hahaha.

That reminds me of the days when I KNEW Ben as a White boy - This was way before the day I first met him.

At 11/14/04 09:14 PM, Painbringer wrote: I think he looks a little mean in that one, but that's what he warned us about before ever showing his face.

heh. i thought "if that's mean...he must look pretty damn funny when he's really pissed off!"

I guess I can only do a girl if she's with a guy who would let me.

Yeah, I'm such a loser.

every man's dream...in some dimension or another...
cept in my dream its, me two girls..if they'd let me :/

hey... FEKC j00!! when Ben roamed the BBS, i wasnt even signed up.... so quiet YER!

Shut the FUCK up, n00b! :-)

omg, you're right!!! how did i ever let such a noob in here?!

hmm... im MARCUS... THATS Ben *points to the scrawny kid in the corner*
lol jk dude, im scrawny too, hahaha.

nothing wrong with being scrawny!

That reminds me of the days when I KNEW Ben as a White boy - This was way before the day I first met him.

haha i know, before he showed us he was this ultra scrawny asian kid. i thought of him as this 5'7" white kid who had some brown hair and was scrawny like i am. and wore some glasses. it was a surprise for me to find out he was asian.

i still can't picture haniousdude as looking asian. he's still that blonde blue eyed hitler's youth type kid in my mind

At 11/14/04 09:22 PM, MALforPresident wrote: heh. i thought "if that's mean...he must look pretty damn funny when he's really pissed off!"

I guess you would have to see him after an argument with his dad. But I shouldn't go there.

every man's dream...in some dimension or another... cept in my dream its, me two girls..if they'd let me :/

I totally understand.

omg, you're right!!! how did i ever let such a noob in here?!

You tell me.

nothing wrong with being scrawny!

Scrawnyness can look secksay too!

it was a surprise for me to find out he was asian.

Not to mention that he looked like a gangster to me on the first day.

i still can't picture haniousdude as looking asian. he's still that blonde blue eyed hitler's youth type kid in my mind

I imagined him as a German kid/robot.

At 11/14/04 09:40 PM, Painbringer wrote: I guess you would have to see him after an argument with his dad. But I shouldn't go there.

ah, understandable.

me, i dont get very angry ever. in fact i dont remember ever being pissed off (other then childhood when i was all fucked up for some reason)

I totally understand.

heh.

You tell me.

i guess i figured that if i didn't let him in due to noobishness. allison would bitch at me about letting her in and not him..or he'd bitch at me for the same thing.

Scrawnyness can look secksay too!

does my scrawnyness look secksay?!

Not to mention that he looked like a gangster to me on the first day.

ahahahahah, ben?! a gangster?!?!?

I imagined him as a German kid/robot.

which makes me wonder. what exactly did you have in your mind before you saw me?

At 11/14/04 09:46 PM, MALforPresident wrote: me, i dont get very angry ever. in fact i dont remember ever being pissed off (other then childhood when i was all fucked up for some reason)

I sometimes become like an animal when I am really pissed.

i guess i figured that if i didn't let him in due to noobishness. allison would bitch at me about letting her in and not him..or he'd bitch at me for the same thing.

Ah yes, the old hypocricy factor.

does my scrawnyness look secksay?!

You don't look so scrawny.

ahahahahah, ben?! a gangster?!?!?

I can imagine how he would talk if he were.

what exactly did you have in your mind before you saw me?

I...can't...remember!