At 6/11/07 08:57 PM, Idiosyncratic wrote: I saw a picture of you; you don't look as I pictured you, short hair, normal kid, ya know.

STOP MESSING WITH MY EMOTIONS!

Which thread did you see my picture in?

I never claimed that I had long hair. But, I'm probably going to grow it next year.

At 6/11/07 09:07 PM, GoryBlizzard wrote:

At 6/11/07 08:57 PM, Idiosyncratic wrote: I saw a picture of you; you don't look as I pictured you, short hair, normal kid, ya know.

STOP MESSING WITH MY EMOTIONS!

Which thread did you see my picture in?

I never claimed that I had long hair. But, I'm probably going to grow it next year.

I admit, I imagined you as a shaved head or long haired, blue-eyed, white man, wearing a band shirt.

At 6/11/07 09:11 PM, Hypocrisy wrote: I admit, I imagined you as a shaved head or long haired, blue-eyed, white man, wearing a band shirt.

Oh?

Well then, I apologize for disappointing you.

I don't even have any band shirts, damn it. I wish I did, though. Most of my shirts are just bland.

At 6/11/07 09:24 PM, GoryBlizzard wrote:

At 6/11/07 09:11 PM, Hypocrisy wrote: I admit, I imagined you as a shaved head or long haired, blue-eyed, white man, wearing a band shirt.

Oh?

Well then, I apologize for disappointing you.

I was not disappointed.

At 6/11/07 09:07 PM, GoryBlizzard wrote: Which thread did you see my picture in?

It was a ChaiLatte camera whore thread.

At 6/11/07 09:48 PM, Idiosyncratic wrote:

At 6/11/07 09:07 PM, GoryBlizzard wrote: Which thread did you see my picture in?

It was a ChaiLatte camera whore thread.

Well, half is face was covered in that picture.

At 6/11/07 09:51 PM, 0peth wrote:

At 6/11/07 09:48 PM, Idiosyncratic wrote:

Well, half is face was covered in that picture.

It was enough.

At 6/11/07 09:58 PM, Idiosyncratic wrote: It was enough.

Here's a better pic.

C-C-C-COMBO BREAKER!

At 6/11/07 10:10 PM, Rokuro wrote: I know you guys might be tired of talking about Power Metal with all of the DF rants and such... but would anyone recommend any Speedy Power Metal?

Helloween "Keeper of the Seven Keys: Part 2".

At 6/11/07 10:00 PM, GoryBlizzard wrote:

Here's a better pic.

I swear I've seen you before.

Where do you go to school again?

At 6/11/07 07:47 PM, GoryBlizzard wrote:

At 6/11/07 07:45 PM, Kronik-The-Echidna wrote: I also own one of their albums. Made of Flesh.

I have all 7 of their albums.

I think you should send me one. Fleshcrawl is gud.

At 6/11/07 10:00 PM, GoryBlizzard wrote:

At 6/11/07 09:58 PM, Idiosyncratic wrote: It was enough.

Here's a better pic.

-____- CERTANLI NOT WAT I WAZ ESPECSTING!!1

-____- CERTANLI NOT WAT I WAZ ESPECSTING!!1

GTFO OFF MAH INTRANET N00B137

HAHAHA I was expecting long haired dude.

He looks like a mortal kombat fan. I dunno why he just strikes me as a mortal kombat fan from the clothes and face lol.

At 6/11/07 10:10 PM, Rokuro wrote: Speedy Power Metal?

Heavenly.

Anyone notice that King Diamond has an album coming out on th 26th?

At 6/11/07 07:48 PM, Kiddmeizter wrote:

At 6/11/07 02:02 PM, Centurion-Ryan wrote: Kidd: Damn, that sucks. You know what I call them? Fighting actions. Beat his face in.

Usually, I would, But I've noticed...

Nothing is working out for me recently, And I'm just giving up...

I'm not going to hit on girls anymore, I'm not going to try to get good grades, I'm not going to Fight anyone, I'm just going to be a doormat, (Not that I already wasn't), I've already let everyone walk all over me, And I'm sick of it, I hate myself.

you think YOU'RE full of fail? Look at me. Got kicked out of 2 universities, might go to jail for at least 2 years, grew up in a severely dysfunctional family, has had numerous issues with overdrinking and even more issues with going nuts from doing too many drugs. I got laid once when I was 13, but I regret that because she was a whore, and I didn't get laid again until I was... gasp! 16. Furthermore, I barely graduated high school. And I went to high school in the ghetto.

I'm not even going to try to achieve anything, My life has pretty much failed already.
You want proof?

Ok, let's see...

I don't have a girlfriend, And I never EVER have, at 15 this is unusual, It's not that I'm hideous or anything, I'm also pretty funny, I think some of you might agree.

that's not unusual. I didn't have a steady GF until I was 17. I only got laid twice since then.

..It's just that I'm so fucking shy, I never take any risks,this life Isn't for me, It isn't for the weak.

Then get strong. It's not hard. What you need, is a pull up bar, some martial art lessons, and to make yourself look so good your self-confidence will rise accordingly.

Only the strong survive.

Exactly.

Ok, Another Example, I suck at almost everything, I used to get good grades, Now I don't, Because I focused on music and girls, Which I failed at, miserably.

I used to get good grades when I was in junior high. Then I gave up completely and got high all the time.

Another one, My friends, I kind of drifted away from my best friends, because they were sort of geeks, Or social rejects, and I though I was "Too cool for them" ...And I started hanging out with this fucking evil clique of traitors....Instead.

I gave up loyalty for passing,Shallow, Popularity.

So you made a mistake. Apologize to him. Admit you fucked up big league.

I've always taken everybody's crap, I've always been a good person, I've always Been generous, I've always let everyone have their way with me,I've always done what I'm told, I've always tried to avoid hurting people's feelings...

Good. Now you can hold it against them and guilt trip them. Use it to your advantage. Learn to manipulate people.

I've never asked for anything back,I've never treated anyone badly, I've never started a fight, I've never betrayed anyone, I've never disrespected anyone's opinion, I've never been mean to anyone on purpose, I've never attacked anyone weaker than me...

What you need to do is start to hate everyone instead of yourself. If anybody gives you shit, just give them shit. And be relentless. If someone fucks with you, have a spiked glove with ya, and say something along the lines of "You wanna fucking START somethin', bitch? I'll fuck you up! I'll unscrew your head and cum down your neck! I will rape your sister and piss in her hair! I will fuck your shit UP!"

I've been used over, and over and OVER again!!

I'm sick and tired of this fucking shit, I'm sick and tired of myself,And everything I do.
I hate myself, and I have for a long time, I've always hidden it though....

What you need to do is hate everyone else, not yourself. Learn to direct it elsewhere, and use that hate to motivate you.

At 6/11/07 11:49 PM, ElGhoulio wrote:
that's not unusual. I didn't have a steady GF until I was 17. I only got laid twice since then.

*I only got laid twice BEFORE that.

At 6/11/07 07:48 PM, Kiddmeizter wrote:

At 6/11/07 02:02 PM, Centurion-Ryan wrote:

big long emo rant

Kidd: listen to me, I am 17, I've never had a girlfriend, I don't have very many friends, and I've failed math twice in a row with barely getting by in my other classes, I get by without being depressed by mainly simply looking at the good things in life, a lot of my friends are social rejects, yet I don't care if being around them makes me less "cool" because I never really wanted to be cool in the first place.

Also, I am the shyest person I know, nor do I take many risks for fear of fucking things up, but thats also how I've gotten a lot of the things I have is by knowing when to do or not do something. I also had to put up with a shitload of crap, until 8th grade when I snapped and almost beat the shit out of the guy who was picking on me, I haven't gotten any shit sense then. If you are depressed and thinking about suicide, get help from someone, because killing yourself won't fix anything, life has its ups and downs, I've had some downs in my life, same with ups.

If you just give up trying, you won't get anywhere in life, you'll end up on the street begging for money to satisfy your drug addiction, but if you try, sure you might fail, but you could succeed, and its better to try and fail, then to never try at all, you know the people that shoot up schools? they do it because they gave up, if they had just carried on with trying they wouldn't have ended up hating life.

I once saw a sig on here with a picture of the kid that shot up V-tech, it said, when you leave life, leave loving it, not hating it like this coward, do you really want to be a coward?

think about that for a while

what Ghoul said is a good idea, get some karate lessons or something, not only will it teach you how to beat the shit out of people who mess with you, it will also help your confidence

At 6/12/07 12:04 AM, Lost-Thought wrote:

I once saw a sig on here with a picture of the kid that shot up V-tech, it said, when you leave life, leave loving it, not hating it like this coward, do you really want to be a coward?

think about that for a while

Yeah... Eh. I hate life, but I ain't about to kill myself (though 4 or so months back I was so loony I tried to 4 times).

I know it's hard to understand, but I came to a point where I wasn't sad, nor was I emo... I was apathetic. I'dve given my left nut if I HAD something to be sad about. I was just... meh. Everything seemed grey to me, everything was pointless. Life was pointless... I was pointless... everything was meaningless, everything was ephemeral and dying. It's really hard to keep your chin up when you have that kind of (drug induced) mentality, because it's not convincing yourself to look on the bright side of things, it's more like convincing yourself to feel emotion. So I kinda understand where Kidd is coming from.

At 6/11/07 11:49 PM, ElGhoulio wrote: And I went to high school in the ghetto.

How did you get into Metal living in the ghetto? I'm not insinuating that every and all ghetto's are hookers and cripz n bloodz, but growing up in a ghetto you'd think you would have ended up listening to different stuff. Forgive me if that sounds stupid, but I'm interested.

At 6/12/07 01:03 AM, TakeNoPrisoners wrote:

At 6/11/07 11:49 PM, ElGhoulio wrote: And I went to high school in the ghetto.

How did you get into Metal living in the ghetto? I'm not insinuating that every and all ghetto's are hookers and cripz n bloodz, but growing up in a ghetto you'd think you would have ended up listening to different stuff. Forgive me if that sounds stupid, but I'm interested.

I didn't grow up in the ghetto, only went to high school in it. There are kids there who listen to metal. just not that many. No, sir, I grew up in the boonies, out across the hills from the ghetto, in a little pocket of tweekers, prostatots, and drunks called El Sobrante.

I just redid myspace, so I made a band list for it. Here is the longest list I've ever had, with every band I listen to from every genre.

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arsis<br>
arterial hemorrhage<br>
atheist<br>
beheaded<br>
behemoth<br>
beneath the massacre<br>
biggie smalls<br>
blaze ya dead homie<br>
bloodbath<br>
bob marley<br>
bolt thrower<br>
bone crusher<br>
bone thugs and harmony<br>
busta rhymes<br>
cannibal corpse<br>
carcass<br>
cattle decapitation<br>
charlie clouser<br>
cryptopsy<br>
cynic<br>
damien marley<br>
dark lotus<br>
dark tranquility<br>
david bowie<br>
decapitated<br>
decrepit birth<br>
deeds of flesh<br>
deicide<br>
devourment<br>
discordance axis<br>
dmx<br>
dr. dre<br>
eminem<br>
ensiferum<br>
exhumed<br>
finntroll<br>
fleshcrawl<br>
folkearth<br>
goratory<br>
gorerotted<br>
gorgasm<br>
gorguts<br>
gwar<br>
hatesphere<br>
hypocrisy<br>
incantation<br>
insane clown posse<br>
internal suffering<br>
jamie madrox<br>
kataklysm<br>
korpiklaani<br>
krisiun<br>
lamb of god<br>
led zeppelin<br>
lil wayne<br>
lil wyte<br>
lord gore<br>
ludacris<br>
malevolent creation<br>
meshuggah<br>
metallica<br>
mobb deep<br>
monoxide child<br>
moonsorrow<br>
mortician<br>
nas<br>
necrophagist<br>
necrophobic<br>
neuraxis<br>
nile<br>
pandemonium<br>
pantera<br>
pink floyd<br>
rage against the machine<br>
reed dollars<br>
rick ross<br>
see you next tuesday<br>
snoop doggy dogg<br>
styles p<br>
sublime<br>
swizz beatz<br>
t.i.<br>
the beatles<br>
the black dahlia murder<br>
the faceless<br>
the number 12 looks like you<br>
the red hot chili peppers<br>
three six mafia<br>
thyrfing<br>
torsofuck<br>
trick daddy<br>
tupac<br>
twiztid<br>
tyr<br>
vehemence<br>
vintersorg<br>
vital remains<br>
vomitory<br>
windir<br>
wintersun<br>
zyklon<br>
<br></div>

At 6/12/07 05:52 AM, Sekhem wrote: So I was wondering, where are all the good female vocalists in metal?

There is a few I enjoy:

Arch Enemy's Angela Gossow

Come on, she's just a computer-processed slut with absolutely no real power behind it.

Good bands with female vocalists:

Amaran (Melodic Death/Heavy Metal, only clean vocals)
Holy Moses (German Thrash in the vein of Kreator/Sodom)

Kiddmeizter, listen to what Ghoul said, as he posted a few worthwhile guidelines.

I had 4 years of absolute loneliness, extreme shyness; no friends, no real family to pick up my beaten up pieces from the streets. I got beaten up once or twice a day, for 4 years, the whole school avoided and hated me, because I simply came from another, different part of the country with different ideologies and a more modern approach to life. That was between 1998 and 2002, I tried to end my life several times, but didn't quite have the courage to do the final step. I'm glad about that now, since I found my confidence at the end of the last year of 2002 and when I finished the primary school in that same year, I managed to get away from torment and started living. Now I'm taller and also quite a bit stronger than most people around here and no one has even tried to approach me in a violent way since. I don't have many friends, but the few I have I can trust and they know they can trust me as well. It's all about getting through the bad times and gaining enough confidence to face your fears.

When I was 14 I thought that everyone had a girlfriend but me, I felt alone and expected to be a lifetime-virgin - I got laid the year after :P stuff like that comes when you expect it the least ;)

So hold your fucking head up and do what people tell you here, trust me, it WILL work, maybe not immediately, but you'll be glad you listened in the not-too-distant future ;)

kidd, i know how your feeling mate, at 15 i had had no experience with girls at all, i dont think i even knew any (in alll seriousness) i had a group of "popular" friends who i was just some guy that turned up and occaisionally said something funny. then i was similar to you betrayed over a girl (which right then was the most important thing in the world) and i hated everything i just felt alone my grades slipped at school i didnt go out at all, then i started hanging out with a group of people i knew and were more acquaintances with and i am now still friends with them they treated me like part of the group rather then a clinger on. in terms of girls i had my first kiss at 16, then there were a couple of other drunken moments and then at 18/19 i had my first girlfriend and got laid.

what i did was just to be friends with people and girls in particular the more focus and importance you over think everything. i worked on the idea that if i was a friend that people could come and talk to about anything i would be much closer to them and much more important then just another boyfriend.

in terms of school work all i can say is push it, i scrapped through everything actually my 11+ (taken to go from primary school into secondary school) i got 6 marks over the pass. GCSE's i got 4 B's 6 C's if i had one less B i wouldnt have studied A levels. at AS level i got a U in one of my subjects and only just passed one other then half way thro my final year i had to drop biology cos i was fucking awful at it and i got to uni cos of the few points from my gcse's and the uni lowered its offer cos they wanted me.

you are not alone and trust me things gets better, giving up is the worst thing you can do, its better to try and fail then not to try at all.

OMFG DREAM THEATER AND SYMPHONY X PLAYING AT WEMBLEY ARENA IN OCTOBER.

IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOING!!!!!

UPDATED LIST OF FAVOURITE BANDS

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Aborym
Behemoth
Bloodbath
Borknagar
Burzum
Carpathian Forest
Celtic Frost
Cryptopsy
Deicide
Destroyer 666
Dimmu Borgir
Dream Theater
Emperor
Gorgoroth
Immortal
Marduk
Mercyful Fate
Motorhead
Mystic Circle
Naglfar
Napalm Death
Obituary
Setherial
Shores of Sheol
Ulver
Xasthur

At 6/12/07 07:50 AM, DanAbnormal wrote: OMFG DREAM THEATER AND SYMPHONY X PLAYING AT WEMBLEY ARENA IN OCTOBER.

IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOING!!!!!

ME TOO! BUT IN OSLOOOOOOOOO!!!!

At 6/11/07 10:26 PM, Idiosyncratic wrote: I swear I've seen you before.

Where do you go to school again?

On the Lower East Side. I also work part-time in Midtown. Do you remember exactly where you think you saw me?