I've spent enough time on this message. I'm about to say "fuck it" piss out my window, hit a black and mild, and play some video games to forget shit.
At 2/22/09 03:58 PM, Nev wrote:
No.
But I trust they're good :P.
So you trust them to be good because I vouch for them? If so, that makes me feel a bit better. I need to know more people in fucking person from the true fucking metal scene, god damnit. in fucking person. damnit, man....Nev. you need to hit me up some time on aim or msn. I'm in a fucking rut. I'm about to make a fucking "luff list"
Nev
oppugnant
D3ntatus
Ghoul (Alex 2)
Marko
Ponos, as misguided and just dumb as he's being right now, I still have faith in his awesomeness
Takenoprisoners
Idiosyncratic (Alex 3, cause to me, I'm Alex #1)
Delirium, as young as you may be
fucking Bonemill, though he won't post one god damn message now and then anymore
Bill
even you fucking assholes who don't post in the metal hell
Mendou
Kuro
Gendo
and others who i'm sorry i may have neglected to mention because i'm out of my mind right now
SO, MY AIM, M00NH0UND, HIT ME UP. I CAN USE ANY KIND OF DISTRACTION AT THIS POINT.
I'm at a low point in my life (and I've been at this low point but haven't discussed it with my fellow hellions) due to many different reasons beyond my control such as my asshole step brother who I would bludgeon to death with a pipe I'm actually looking at right now sitting on my radiator with that very thought in mind, no fucking lie, and other shit I won't bother to discuss here.
god damnit
I don't belong in this bullshit tiny village. It doesn't facilitate any of the activities in which I wish to participate. It doesn't even begin to hold what I want at this poijnt in my life.
I've been wanting to chill and connect with some people i haven't even met in person like my distant friends, Loren, Melissa, Jessica. None of you would have a clue who the fuck I'm talking about. They're not internet people. These few are people I should know in person.
I AM FUCKING STUCK WHERE I AM IN LIFE AND I DON'T FUCKING LIKE IT.
I'm fucking blasting Megadeth, Overkill, Sodom, and Kreator at like 2:30 in the morning and I don't even give a flying fuck who I wake up.
so yeah, this "who are you listening to?" thing that Duffy, (and not the Duffy who I WISH still posted here, he wouldn't even know who I'm talking about)) started, I'm listening to some thrash metal, most likely Megadeth. I don't even know what song or what album if I had to guess, well, it's probably either from peace sells, killing is my business, or youthanasia. I can't tell right now. I'm fucking wasted.
I've had more beer and vodka than I probably should. And I'm about to hit a black and mild to chill the fuck out, because I'm too0 energetic right now. The on;ly thing that could calm me down right now is bud, and guess what? None of my fucking ASSHOLE associates can hook me up with that, even though I should have had some yesterday. I'm starting to think that human beings in general are dickholes who are full of shit.
I liiiike the way that you fooool youreseeeelf