At 10/22/24 12:15 AM, detergent1 wrote:college feels like a limbo for me.
time passes, it feels like I'm going somewhere, but I haven't really gone anywhere. limbo.
SAME! I'd kind of resigned myself to putting my life on hold until I graduated, since I didn't have any mental capacity to enjoy things at all - even though I had enough time to waste every day on reddit.
so I really just want to finish college. I have this expectation that once I start working full-time, I'll get back my insane productivity I had back in high school. I feel like a well delimited separation of work and personal life would do wonders, and I'd be able to be 100% in each moment of the day, without lingering.
maybe that's true. or maybe it's a fantasy. I don't know.
It really depends on you. You'll likely have much more free time once you start working (assuming your place of work has good WLB). However, restraining yourself for so long might mean that you also won't have any idea how to continue once you do get the freedom to do whatever you want.
If productivity and creativity are muscles and you've restrained yourself from using them for a long period of time, then unlike the movies, you're not gonna go on a rampage once you've set yourself free - you'll just find you've atrophied and need time to get back to where you once were.
For me, I kind of shifted my interests away from programming as a hobby. To the extent I didn't even bother shitposting on Clock day, although it certainly didn't help that I was busy that day.
And on a side note I wonder if the feeling of "putting your life on hold" is a consequence of having a single-minded approach to a long term objective or not. Whether it's graduating college, aiming for a high-up position in a company, moving abroad, learning a language, whatever...if it's something that requires a single-minded approach to the detriment of everything else, maybe it's likely to cause that feeling? Balance is necessary, but balance isn't possible when you have deadlines and pressure, whether externally or internally...
At 1/27/25 01:37 PM, Sam wrote:At 10/20/24 05:59 PM, Gimmick wrote:Responsibilities fucking suck. How the fuck do you guys adult with shit like this?
I feel you. Just a never ending stream of stuff. I've been taking the last few months off because I burnt out, but in a different way than I have before.
If I had known flash games were going to lead me to JIRA boards and grooming backlogs I'd have never joined this stupid website!
Haha! Much as I'd like to say the same, I'm glad I found this website and have the career I do now, if only because of the benefit of hindsight. Given that the only career pathways I had remotely any interest in at the time were CS and medicine, well...it'd be mighty entitled of me to complain about work seeing what doctors and nurses go through!
On the plus side, I guess it does get better from time to time. My post at the time was written after a very long year with almost no proper breaks at all. I'd frequently find myself just biding my time until the next statutory holiday so that I could enjoy a long weekend. Shortly after that post I'd taken a vacation back home to India, and even though I lamented going back to work pretty much the entire time I was there, it was enough to charge my batteries once I came back.
I don't know whether I'm susceptible to burnout or not. But taking a break from it all certainly helped, at least for now. The unfortunate part of it all is that most of us (at least in NA) don't really have the opportunity to take enough breaks. 1 or 2 weeks is better than nothing, but it's barely enough I would argue. Most of Europe has got it right with 4-5 weeks, and I wonder if we'll ever get that here. One can hope things improve, although my reserve of hope has been severely drained recently given the wrinkled orange emperor taking power...