haha a question made so I can answer it myself even before hearing you!
I feel good playing games. work and college is most of the time not very rewarding. I know that if I did not play games, and instead further honed my skills just tried harder, I'd eventually overcome all difficulties. right? right? but it is hard to try harder every day, every week, for several months. so I play games. after all, when will you have tried hard enough? I play as medic or engineer in Entrenched at Roblox, helping people, it is very satisfying to dig trenches. or I play some RPG, improve after some grinding and finally defeat a boss; feels good.
sometimes I have very unpleasant tasks to do. I'm faced with spare time. I could work immediately and then enjoy this free time free of guilt when I'm finished. but past experiences say time is never enough, no matter how much effort you throw, this task will remain unfinished and be delivered super ugly. so why do things early, if you can never finish anyway? and so I play. and I'm happy this way. am I?
anyway.