At 11/11/06 11:22 PM, ElGhoulio wrote:
Cutters suck. Everybody knows you go down the highway, not across the street.
I'm a cutter. I have numerous psychological problems; schizophrenia, bi polar disorder, as well as extremely low self esteem, confidence, and self image. Why do I cut/burn/torture myself?
My mind tells me that I need to teach myself a lesson; I'm never good enough for myself, can never be satisfied. I don't want to hurt myself, I really don't, but I have to. Something else takes control of myself, it's not me.
I abhor the attention whore cutters, the typical emos who cry and whine about it constantly, who show it off, who just want attention. It pisses me off immensely, cutting is not cool and is in fact stupid.
My therapist and I are working on my self harm problems. I've endured a few weeks in a mental hospital for it, but was later admitted to a general therapist, as my goal was not to kill myself, but just harm.
Anyway, I'll check your stuff out Goat. Can't wait to hear it.